My Kids!

Good Morning to you! I hope that this morning finds in high spirits and feeling blessed. I am up early. It’s 3:30 and I have already had two cups of java. My hubby and I have been up and talking. It’s nice to have the morning to reconnect. There are times that we need this. We are so busy and sometimes forget to spend some alone time together. If we aren’t busy, we are so tired that we just fall asleep! 😊

I think that I am feeling disconnected from my family. I started crying Sunday after my daughter headed home with her family. We talk all the time but sometimes that just doesn’t seem to be enough. I try not to be an overbearing or demanding mother. I saw her on Friday as well, but it was her daughter’s birthday party, so she was extremely busy. The holidays are coming, and I know that we will have time to visit. She is so busy with her doctorate program and her family that there is little time. She always makes time for me when I ask. I love her so much and just want to hold her and know that she is ok.

It’s not just my daughter that I miss. I miss my son, Danny. For reason’s I would rather not talk about right now, I haven’t seen or talked to him since my birthday. He was always a momma’s boy. I know that he must grow up but does growing up mean that you must cut ties with your family? We used to go camping and fishing all the time. He would call me on a Friday and invite us for the weekend. His fiancé and I have some issues and some perceived differences. I am willing to let bygones be bygones. She doesn’t seem so inclined. I would work on anything to make things easier for my son. Because no matter the situation, I never want to make things hard on him. But I believe that he is the only one that can fix this!

I also miss my son, Justin. He has so many things going on in his life that I worry about his choices. I’m afraid that he is running from his responsibilities. I think that he doesn’t believe that he deserves to be happy. And that he is exactly what he is hunting. Happiness doesn’t come from outside things, it comes from within. Life isn’t always about butterflies in the stomach. As adults, we realize that there are more important things in life.

My kids have always meant the world to me and still do. It is so much harder when your children are grown. At least when they were small, they lived at home and I had some control over what happened in their lives. Now, I don’t know anything but what they tell me, if they even talk to me. The not knowing is harder than anything.

Thank you for listening to a lonely momma vent. I hope that you all have a wonderful day.