Busy Week

Good evening everyone. It seems as most of this week, this blog will be late. I have things that I am doing every morning. My exhaustion is wearing me out. I think also that my allergies are taking a toll on me.

My hubby is having a little surgery tomorrow in San Antonio. He has some extra tissue in the corner of his eye and they are going to remove it and send it off for biopsy. Dr. Panday doesn’t feel like it is anything but just wants to be safe. We have to leave here at around 5 am. I’m to sure how long it will take but then we can come home. On Friday, we have a follow up appointment at 8 am. I have lots of driving going on this week.

Lucy update! She is doing great. She is very stubborn though. No new tricks, just the same ones and working on potty training her on the pads. She sleeps with us and does well all night. I think that she is already so spoiled. She wouldn’t be still until Wesley and I moved apart so that she could crawl up between our shoulders. Where she lays with her back on me and her feet touching Wesley. So yeah, I would say that she is spoiled.

Have you ever just been tired or exhausted? I seem to be that way right now. But I also don’t ever seem to stop. I just don’t want to get into a depression. Been there, done that! And sleeping a lot is a telltale sign that depression is there. But the pain in my back is still nagging at me and at times is more than nagging.

But on a fun note, I brought everyone here at home a lollipop and they were enjoying it. I will write more tomorrow afternoon. I hope that everyone has a wonderful night.

                                      

Just An Outing

Good afternoon y’all. I just want you to know that it is all Bernice’s fault that I didn’t get to write this morning. No, I’m just joking. I had an eye appointment in San Antonio at 8 this morning. We left here at 5:30. Oh I feel so special, Bernice took me to Cracker Barrel for breakfast. Oh my, it was so good. Thank you, Bernice. I owe you for that. I had the one on the left and she had only one of the ones on the right!

My eye appointment was about my eyelids drooping. Evidently, my lefteyelid covers my pupil when I am looking straight out and my right onecovers my pupil halfway. The doctor told me that it’s not because of excess skin but because of the elasticity in my eyelid isn’t what it use to be, kind of like the rest of me, drooping all over the place. Lol  So, now we have to get approval through the insurance and then we will schedule the surgery.

Surgery of any kind makes me nervous. I think that I will document everything for you to see. I’ll warn you before I post any pictures of my eyes just in case any of you have weak stomachs. It was so stupid of me to look the surgery up on Youtube because I had to turn it off because it was making me sick to my stomach. Haha

I hope that your day has been an awesome one. I haven’t had a nap today. I am trying to break that habit. Again!

Start My Week

Good morning all! I woke up a little late this morning. I blame it on Lucy. She woke me up around 2:30 am wanting to get up in bed with us. So, I picked her up and put her in bed, she crawled up under the cover in between us and went to sleep. smh

Today is going to be my one and only easy day. All I am going to do is take Lucy to the vet. She will be getting her first shots, nails clipped, and her flea medicine. This ought to be fun. She is so rambunctious.

I also have to see if my referral was done for my appointment with the eye doctor. They want to do an eye lift. I always look like I am half asleep. When I hold my eye open, I see so much better. So, I am going to see what we can do about it.



I want to do some crafts today. I haven’t worked on anything in a while and I am missing it so bad. I have been taking muscle relaxants and pain pills for my back and they make me tired. I didn’t take any yesterday and am going to try not to take any today. Maybe I can get something done.



I’m going to stop this blog for now and start getting ready for my day. Thank you for letting me a part of your day. God bless you and always remember that you are not alone.

Please feel free to leave me a comment and I will reply as soon as I can. My challenge today is to do something crafty!

Faith

Good Sunday morning! I hope that your day is starting out beautifully. Mine is good. I thank God for waking me up and allowing me to get out of bed on my own. I just finished a Mexican Chicken and Cornbread Casserole and it is in the oven. We are having a potluck lunch after our service. I missed church last week because of my back pain but I don’t want to miss today. I find that I need this to help me have a good week.

I guess this is as good a time as any to discuss my faith. I believe in God and have accepted Him into my life as my Lord and Savior. I know that He exist because He has shown Himself in my life so many times. I have read some of the bible and love Sunday school because I learn so much. I believe that if anyone reads Mathew, Mark, Luke, and John of the New Testament that they will feel in their hearts that Jesus did so much for us. The life He lead, the roads He traveled, the miracles that He performed, and ultimately the sacrifice He gave for me. I have no doubt that He has walked with me through my travels and carried me when I couldn’t keep going.

Where I have my problems is that I can’t seem to keep myself focused on him. I have a hard time talking to others about what He has done for me. Most of the time I don’t feel as if I belong with other Christians. I don’t feel educated enough to discuss the bible. I know that all of this is on me and no one else. To educate myself, I must take the time to learn the bible. This is where I have most of my issues. I cannot seem to make myself do this. I know that I am busy, but I have a bible app on my phone so there really is no excuse.

I feel ashamed of myself for not doing this, because He has been with me my whole life. He was there through my abusive marriage, my addiction, my time away from my children, through a sickness that even the doctors didn’t think I would live through. He has been at my side as I have battled depression and He has blessed me more times over as we started a new journey with four of our grandchildren. I know that he has forgiven me for all my sins because I simply asked. But I think that the problem here is that I haven’t forgiven myself. I know that I don’t deserve all that He has done for me but that is what they call Grace.

This is where I am and where I struggle. I am going to start today anew and focus my life on Him. I hope that y’all have a wonderful Sunday and dwell in the light of the Lord!

Lazy Day

Wonderful Saturday to all! I slept until 6:00 this morning. That felt good. I am stiff this morning but feeling good. I hope that you are having a great morning. I think that we aren’t going to do too much today. I want to clean the house and wash bed covers. Doesn’t that sound like fun? Lol I also need to make a grocery list. I am going to try to start eating healthier. I’m just such a picky eater. I don’t like many vegetables.

I’m not going to mention sewing until after I get it done. I haven’t done any sewing in a couple of weeks, so I am really upset with myself over that. I have so much that I am going to need to get done in the next 4 months. I need to quit talking about it and just get it done. I have many birthdays in the next two months and then Christmas right after that.

Lucy is so spoiled already. She is like having a toddler in the house that drags out every toy that she has but that’s not enough for her, she must look for anything that isn’t nailed down to drag out as well. I have to say that she is smart though. She will sit, fetch, and doing well with potty training. I have an appointment with vet Monday. She will be getting her shots and nails trimmed and flea medicine.


I’m just trying to not let myself overwhelmed and take care of daily business. The kids are out of school of course, so I think that we are going to get all the things that need to be done early this morning and then they will have the rest of the day to do whatever (within reason) they want. They are doing good in school so far, I am super proud.

Have a wonderful Saturday!

Smile

Good morning all! I hope that you woke up this morning looking forward to your day. I know that I am because I don’t plan on doing anything but crafts. But of course, I must clean the house. Having a puppy is worse than having toddler. You can teach a toddler to pick up their toys and Lucy just strings all her toys and anything else she can find everywhere in the house. 😉 Not to mention the potty training! So, I must keep a bucket with bleach water and a mop just to keep up with her.

I know that yesterday I was feeling very overwhelmed and today I am not going to let it get to me. But I thought that I would tell you what my schedule looks like next week. Monday – take Lucy to the vet and currently that is all for that day. Tuesday – I have an appointment with an ophthalmologist (I have put this off for 3 months) in San Antonio. Wednesday – Bubba and Nick have counseling appointments in Hallettsville. Thursday – Wesley has surgery on his eye in San Antonio. Friday – Wesley has a follow-up appointment in San Antonio.

In summary: three trips to San Antonio which is a two-hour trip in and two-hour trip home. But my bright spot for next week is that there isn’t anything planned that following weekend. And I am going to keep that weekend open because we have two weddings to attend in September. I am not going to try to keep everything straight. I have everything in my calendar because I couldn’t remember everything even if I tried. I found this bible verse this morning and it kind of hit home for me, so I thought I would share it with you. Proverbs 3:5-6 “Trust in the Lord with all your heart and lean not on your own understanding; in all your ways acknowledge him, and he will make your paths straight.”

I’m thinking about a challenge for all of us! Oh, I have one!!! Put a smile on someone else’s face! I don’t know about you but when I can make someone else smile, it makes me feel good. I hope that you have a wonderful day and that you laugh today!

To Do

Good morning everyone! I hope that your morning is going great. Mine is going pretty well. I have so much to do that I am not sure which end is up. I had some important calls to make and now I’m just waiting for a call back from a couple. I have been going through paperwork that I should have gone through last month! Eeeek….  And there is one piece of mail that I know has been in my stuff for about a month but now is missing. I know that I received it about six weeks ago and I looked for it 3 weeks ago and it was there. I looked this morning and it is gone. Doesn’t that just frustrate you when you do things like that? It does me! Y’all probably don’t procrastinate like me.

This verse came up in my bible today. I thought that I would share it with you. Proverbs 18:21 “The tongue can bring death or life.” I know that for me this verse says a lot. I think that most people don’t realize the damage that their words cause. I know I sometimes must watch what I say because I don’t want to hurt someone. I try to think about how it would make me feel. The hardest time that I have watching my tongue is when I am angry and that is when it can be the most harmful to someone especially to the ones that we love.

I’m dealing with so much right now that I am getting frustrated easily. I know that I don’t work outside the home, but I always have something that I need to do for someone or somewhere that I need to go for someone or plans I must schedule for someone. And the list goes on and on. And then when I can’t do something because I have other plans, I’m expected to “fix” it so that I can do everything. I’m just tired. I’m overwhelmed with everything at this time. But then it’s like “well, why are you tired, you just sit home all day.” REALLY?

Ok, I’m going to stop being negative and start on my “to do list” again. See if I can accomplish something. I will have a wonderful day and I hope that you will too! I will be imagining myself right here:

Nothing Special!

Happy Wednesday. I’ve been thinking about what to write that won’t 
bore you to tears.  😉 Yesterday was a good day. I went to Bernice’s house. A couple of ladies came over and we did bible study. After that I went and laid down in her bed. I was hurting. I finally called and made a doctor’s appointment for Thursday. Today, Wesley has an appointment with eye doctor in San Antonio. Ugh, I don’t like that trip! But he is having surgery on Thursday next week, so we must go.

Yesterday, we went to our craft group up at the clinic. We made these cute little gumball decorations. I decided to make one for Tiffany. I made it in her school colors. She attends Mary Hardin Baylor. I thought that it turned out really cute. And I filled it with sugar-free candy so that maybe she will eat it.

Oh my gosh, it was so hot yesterday. I thought that I was going to melt! I can not wait for cooler weather. I love cold weather. I always figure that I can always put on enough clothing to stay warm, but I can not take enough off to get cool unless I want to be arrested. The temperature outside showed 104. Are you serious?

On a better note, here are some silly selfies that I took. I’m going to make todays blog a little on the short side. I hope that you have a blessed Wednesday and that you are striving for your dreams.                                               

Wanna Be Silly???

Good morning everyone. I hope that this finds you doing well. I’m feeling a little bit better. No sharp pains this morning. I thank God that I now just feel like I had a hard workout yesterday. So how is your morning going?

Do you ever feel like just being silly? I do, and sometimes other people look at me and give me funny looks. But I don’t mind. I enjoy being silly, it makes me feel young. I challenge you to do one silly thing today and see how it makes you feel. My mind still believes that I am in my 20’s and sometimes my body feels like it is in it 60’s. And when I act silly, I feel like a teenager again.

Yesterday, Justin and I were talking about technology and human interaction. We are on opposites sides of this debate, we just have to agree to disagree. He feels that technology has helped social interactions because you can find other people who are interested in the same things. I agree in some ways with him. An example of this is some of the Facebook groups that I am in. I find support on multiple sights about grandparents raising grandchildren. However, it also keeps me from seeking out others who are doing the same thing as I am.

I remember when I first got a Facebook account. I was driving a truck OTR (over the road). I did it so that I could see what my family was doing. At first it was cool but now, I’m not so sure. Many people think that if they post pictures and write what you are doing that it’s the same as talking to each other. And I disagree with that. The same goes with texting, so much is lost in a text. I will use my kids as an example. I can get text and see post but until I actually hear their voice, I’m never sure of how they are doing. At least hearing their voice lets me hear the emotion in their voice. And there are times that I must physically see and touch them. In this age and time, I believe that human contact is missing in our lives. It is proven that humans need physical touch.

The other thing that I believe is that if a person is only having contact with others through ‘screens’ then they do not have to learn what is appropriate and what is not in social situations. On our screens, we can say anything and be anything, not always our true selves. And for me it’s not about being dishonest to others but being dishonest with ourselves.

I think that is how I’m going to end this post. Don’t forget my challenge “Do something silly today”. I hope that you have a beautiful day!

Spoiled!

Wake up to a wonderful Monday morning. I’ve had a couple cup of coffee and about ready to start my day. I must share something with y’all. When you look at this picture, just realize that we do have a step stool. Wesley and I thought this was too funny.

I’m not too sure what I am going to do today. Bubba and Nick have counseling at 9:00 this morning. That should be fun considering how bad my back is hurting me. I’m supposed to have an appointment in Victoria to set up a date when I “want” a colonoscopy. Really? Want? NOT!!!! They found a couple of polyps that concerned them when I had it done before (about 6 months ago). Woohoo, aren’t I the lucky one? I guess that I should thank God that it wasn’t cancer. It’s just hard to be thankful about having to have the procedure again.

Ok, it is my obligation share the cutest pictures. Lucy isn’t spoiled at all! (snicker) I wouldn’t spoil her! And this morning she started fetching a toy and bringing it back to me then she started picking up the toy and putting it in my hands. Smart puppy! She is awake in one and asleep in the other!




I’m pretty sure that I will make an appointment with my primary and go see her. I am out of the muscle relaxer and almost out of the pain pill. And after I do all of this, I’m hoping to take a nap.

I hope that you have a wonderful day!

I'm not 20 anymore!

Good morning everyone! I hope that your Sunday is going great. I’m sorry that I didn’t write yesterday. I went fishing yesterday. I left here at 5:00 am. I woke up at 4:30 and didn’t have enough time to get anything written. How did my fishing trip go? Well, it was fun. The only thing is that the waves were so tall that the boat kept slamming down. We were headed out and going pretty fast. The boat went up on one and when it came down, I think that I kind of stayed in the air off of the seat. When I came down, it slammed me into the seat and I felt such a sharp pain in my lower back. And then it came up again, it flipped me out of the seat. I landed on the floor of the boat in such pain. My back hurt like I have never felt before. My brother, Randy, stopped the boat and helped me get up but it took a bit before I could even move. After we got going again, it couldn’t have been more than a couple of minutes, his fiancé, Kathy, was bounced out her seat. So, my brother’s “deckhands” were worth anything.

He kept asking us if we needed to return to the truck and both of us said “no”. The rest of the ride, we went slower in the boat. We went about 30 miles off shore. I do get bragging rights, I caught the first fish ever caught from his boat. I feel so bad that I had to ask Randy to come back in. I was hurting pretty bad. After we got in, I got in my car and drove home.

Wesley was home and had gotten my walker out and cleaned it up. Mikka came over and helped me get out of the car. I was in such pain at this point that my hubby took me to the ER. They gave me 3 shots and sent me home with some medication for today and told me to see my primary. I’ll call tomorrow and see if she can see me.

Other than this, I got a sunburn and truly enjoyed Randy and Kathy. And yes, I do want to go back out on his boat, maybe when the waters are calmer! Teehee  I think that we wore Randy out. He had to do everything because we weren’t much help to him. But I have to say that this boat was awesome. And it has one of the most important things in it. A TOILET! Isn’t that cool?

I went to bed last night around 9:30 and didn’t wake up until 8:00 this morning. I smelt coffee and bacon. My hubby was in the kitchen making breakfast for all of us. I am so spoiled and absolutely love it. But what woman wouldn’t?

I wanted to share a photo that my hubby took this morning. It’s not like we don’t have a stepping stool!

I hope that you have a beautiful Sunday. God Bless you!